look a PIG!

lol

ok well...AGH....ive had so much free time lately, honestly, it's scary. often times i feel alone and like i haf nothing to do. im on msn like ALL the time trying to find someone to talk to but only in vain.

damn u keane! getting a job and leaving me here to rott away.

blah its not ur fault, it's mine, i should be doing all those things ive set out to do...but im not. im trying to write...i rlly am...>.< argh


tomorrow i plan to go print out sum resumes...and go around mass-handing them out...also gonna give my rentals info on the driving school thingie.

gah...everything...is so silent...all the time.

im living in silence...im breathing it in. i stare at nothing, i hear nothing, i do nothing...i feel like nothing. i am who watches..who waits...who waits for time to give me something to do.

i want to write...i wish i could...i wish...i wish id just do it! i try...i try...why...oh...why...oh why

i find i cant just "play video games" i just cant. it feels weird..it's like i need someone else there to enjoy them..or else it's not rlly enjoyable for me. it's just silence


silence in the morning, cold, crisp, and sweet
silence in the afternoon, suffocating, and tasteless
silence in the evening, swift, motionless, and sutle

silence covered by music, its badly done makeup.

hm. wat to do now

here piggy piggy piggy...